i'M BLOGGING!
HAHAH!
&I got myself antoher new blog at blogspot. Cus' i seriously have no idea how to use Lj. Its so complicated, not only that, but weird. I cant change skin, same goes for Bs, but yah.
I'm there. Dont have to relink me. (:

hahaha.
movingepisodes.blogspot.com

:D 

 hello folks.

I'm back to blog again. 
Reason being, it is because I've gotten myself a new laptop. 
MacBook :D &just nice to celebrate with this special occasion, it arrives at my doorstep at the strike of x'mas eve.
Aint I glad.
Heh heh. 
Anyway, MERRY X'MAS to ya'll.
Enjoy this joyous day to the fullest.


It's a pretty moody x'mas this year. 
):
No mood, how I wished I was in town. 
Enjoying..

Ah wells, Oh'la - Photo Booth's really cool. 


xoxo.

I realised, I'm pretty much a pessimistic person.
Hahaha, I get angry/ annoyed pretty easily.
Just read my dearest sister's blog which has pissed me off, early in the morning.
Yippie! That's so uncool. /:
Firstly, she commented on how disgusted she was when I showed my mother attitude in the cafe that day.
To rebut, I'd proudly tell you, I'm not like you, not a bootlicker daughter in the house.
I don't suck up to mummy and tell her what's happening in my life.
I don't even open my mouth when I'm home.
I don't even speak up to tell them when I'm ill.
I don't even cry infront of them thou' she always say hurtful words to me.
I don't even tell her what's on my life.
WHAT AGAIN? ALL SHE BOTHERS IS JUST MONEY.
yes, you guys are rich, whereas i'm not.
I worked for my own living, thou' it doesn't seems that I can fully support myself.
But well.. least I don't owe you guys.
I don't even like you guys.
So what if they had given you surprise and that has unknowningly increases your love towards them?
wells, they don't give me surprises, infact, they make me dread coming home.
YOU GUYS MAKE ME FEEL SO DISGUSTED BEING WITH YOU ALL!
so what? gonna be fuming mad when you see this post?
Look, I don't give a damn!!
Don't go blogging around me, trying so badly to disgrace me around your buddies.
I can do the same too, whilst I'm also trying to save your face and look good infront of my buds.
Apparently, you've just pushed my limits to the edge.
Congrats. So here's your goddamnangelicfuckingscrewyourownhole reward.
What again? Did your tag says how much you hate me?
I'll tell you straight here, how much I dislike you fellowpians, living under the same hut with me.

I always thought I loved home.
I thought I had became sensible.
But it all seems like a facade.
Even when I'm a real angel, everyone sees me as a devil.



Night safari on saturday night was dopeeeeeeeeeeeeshit.
Hahahaha! I nearly peed on my pants thou.
Lol!
Freaking fake ghosts are really freaking scary.
They scare the wits outta me!
Rawrrs, I'll update the peektures real soon.


I loved the moment where we just spend time quietly, enjoying everything we did together.
This is the kinda life.
:D
Honeyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeeeee yo.

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hello young folks/

changed of blog address.
hahaha, i know it's hard to keep up the trendy yiting who is forever changing her blog address. but ah wells, try to keep up with it! :D
i might slow down for you guys.
but i'll never promise to be blogging all my life.
bad habit dies hard, laziness is still igniting strongly in me.

once again, thank you for the wishings for my birthday! 
imma happy girl. legal for clubs, pubs, drinking, buying ciggs &etcetc. haha.
falling sick on your birthday is the most nono thing that could ever happen to you.
but on a better tone, i've recieved many pretty gifts &im happy (:
thank you for the surprises.


been through a row of roller coster with my cca.
&finally yesterday, i've decided i can no longer hold on to this anymore.
the emotion tension increases.
once, somebody asked me, why do you still want to hold on to this team when all we can see it is mere shit coming up?
then again, it stucked me deeply inside. why again, this question has constantly been around my mind.
i've never once sat down and ponder about it, till yesterday.
and i'm proud to answer, it's because of my self-perceived passion towards this cca.
after 2years of tedious training, the tears, joys and sweat that we all had been through had brought me to this far.
i dint gave up because i've always loved cheerlead.
the passion in me ignited after learning so much from my beloved seniors (nizz, berry, dou, poh, garie, graham and so on)
reminiscing the days where i used to curse &swear on how much my seniors are pushing me over the edge.
testing my limits, hitting my hands and legs, constantly yelling at me nonstop to lock and lock.
such a nuisance, i always thought.
and now, after setting my foot on this stage, im experiencing it..
it feels so different, being a follower and being a leader.
you guys could say, it's easy being a leader.
Just do your best &show your stand.
but wait, no offence.
all these just plain sayings like abc. i've tried.
staying up at nights, browsing for cheerleading videos.
thinking of how to improve this team, how to bring this team up once again.
tried so hard and now, i'm all wore out.
yet on a slightly better tone,
i'm glad that you guys have achieved so much for me, &i'm so proud of you lovelies.
thus, i believed it's time for me to step down now..
Sigh.
if you were to say, everything is dying on you...
what about me?
everything has died upon me.

It's like everything was a whole series of drama.
Drama, drama and more drama. Sometimes I do feel that my heart is sinking to nowhere and I don't know where and how to start picking myself up. At times I need to forget things, forget words, forget those selfishness to move on and feel better. Yet I feel that I'm doing that all alone. Too much things going on, think I'm backing off for now, till I'm ready.
it's backstabbing and stabbing.
why cant females just be like men.